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Lexiphanic

 Lexiphanic (lek-si-FAN-ik)  Using pretentious words and language. After Lexiphanes, a bombastic speaker, in the satire of the same name by Lucian (2nd century CE). From Greek lexis (speech, diction, word) + phainein (to show).

The Crying of Water by Arthur Symons

 

O water, voice of my heart, crying in the sand,
All night long crying with a mournful cry,
As I lie and listen, and cannot understand
The voice of my heart in my side or the voice of the sea,
O water, crying for rest, is it I, is it I?
All night long the water is crying to me.

Unresting water, there shall never be rest
Till the last moon droop and the last tide fail,
And the fire of the end begin to burn in the west;
And the heart shall be weary and wonder and cry like the sea,
All life long crying without avail,
As the water all night long is crying to me.


Variation on the word Sleep by Margaret Atwood


which may not happen.
I would like to watch you,
sleeping. I would like to sleep
with you, to enter
your sleep as its smooth dark wave
slides over my head

and walk with you through that lucent
wavering forest of bluegreen leaves
with its watery sun & three moons
towards the cave where you must descend,
towards your worst fear

I would like to give you the silver
branch, the small white flower, the one
word that will protect you
from the grief at the center
of your dream, from the grief
at the center. I would like to follow
you up the long stairway
again & become
the boat that would row you back
carefully, a flame
in two cupped hands
to where your body lies
beside me, and you enter
it as easily as breathing in

I would like to be the air
that inhabits you for a moment
only. I would like to be that unnoticed
& that necessary.

                                         


Good Bones by Maggie Smith


Life is short, though I keep this from my children.
Life is short, and I’ve shortened mine
in a thousand delicious, ill-advised ways,
a thousand deliciously ill-advised ways
I’ll keep from my children. The world is at least
fifty percent terrible, and that’s a conservative
estimate, though I keep this from my children.
For every bird there is a stone thrown at a bird.
For every loved child, a child broken, bagged,
sunk in a lake. Life is short and the world
is at least half terrible, and for every kind
stranger, there is one who would break you,
though I keep this from my children. I am trying
to sell them the world. Any decent realtor,
walking you through a real shithole, chirps on
about good bones: This place could be beautiful,
right? You could make this place beautiful.


 

Word origins (as a writer you should be aware of this sort of thing)

 Intrepid comes from the Latin word intrepidus, itself formed by the combination of the prefix in-, meaning “not,” and the adjective trepidus, meaning “alarmed.”

 

Umbriferous (uhm-BRIF-uh-ruhs)  Casting a shadow. From Latin umbra (shade, shadow) + ferre (to bear). Some related words are umbrella, adumbrate, and somber. 






Abracadabra. A poem by Mia Kang

  



for Erich and Patricia

 

List of things to banish

Can include words, people, theoretical apparatuses

Can take the form of a grocery list, a scientific experiment, or a manifesto

Can read like a personal ad of unwanting

Can summon aid to help with banishing

Can be uncertain of what will remain

Can have no positive mission statement

Can be written in a language other than language

Can circulate amongst FRIENDS ONLY

Can evade being imagined, written, embodied, archived

Can go like this

Can make itself irrelevant

Can include buildings, brushstrokes, and other abominations

Can mean my way of life is unlivable

Can mean my life is as yet unlived

Can mean I must become a menace to my enemies

Can undo futurity forever in favor of *******

Can remake futurity into someone who doesn’t recognize herself

Can punctuate the present like a cup of coffee or a Monday

Can be dreamed up and shot down and elongated

Can tell us something

Can include forms and fantasies, even the ones getting us by

Can instigate an interregnum

Can be unfinished

Can include hope hopefully

Can be blank

But don’t kid yourself

It isn’t

And it can’t include

History

The Great Black Heron

 

 


 

 

The Great Black Heron

Denise Levertov - 1923-1997


Since I stroll in the woods more often

than on this frequented path, it's usually

trees I observe; but among fellow humans

what I like best is to see an old woman

fishing alone at the end of a jetty,

hours on end, plainly content.

The Russians mushroom-hunting after a rain

trail after themselves a world of red sarafans,

nightingales, samovars, stoves to sleep on

(though without doubt those are not

what they can remember). Vietnamese families

fishing or simply sitting as close as they can

to the water, make me recall that lake in Hanoi

in the amber light, our first, jet-lagged evening,

peace in the war we had come to witness.

This woman engaged in her pleasure evokes

an entire culture, tenacious field-flower

growing itself among the rows of cotton

in red-earth country, under the feet

of mules and masters. I see her

a barefoot child by a muddy river

learning her skill with the pole. What battles

has she survived, what labors?

She's gathered up all the time in the world

—nothing else—and waits for scanty trophies,

complete in herself as a heron.

An attack on those least able to defend themselves

                                  Biden and Xavier Becerra


I can’t come to grips with the fact that we actually need to protect orphans and foster kids from lunatics who want to change the children’s sex.

If these were kids from stable homes with at least one parent in place, this would never be an issue. But it is an issue. So much so that Rep. Jim Banks, has unveiled a bill to protect the adoption rights of parents who want to raise kids based on biological sex.

Remarkably the bill protects the kids from the loons in the child welfare agencies…who are charged with housing and protecting these children from loons…. preventing them from denying prospective adopters who say they will raise kids in a manner consistent with the minor’s biological sex.

The increasingly bizarre US Department of Health and Human Services announced a rule aimed at ensuring minors are placed in homes accepting of their sexual orientation or gender identity.

Okay, sounds harmless enough but in the fine print…. weasels love fine print…..the rule "would require that child welfare agencies ensure that each child in their care who identifies as LGBTQI+ receive a safe and appropriate placement and services that help them thrive. The proposed rule would protect LGBTQI+ youth by placing them in environments free of hostility, mistreatment, or abuse based on the child’s LGBTQI+ status. And the proposed rule would require that caregivers for LGBTQI+ children are properly and fully trained to provide for the needs of the child related to the child’s self-identified sexual orientation, gender identity, and gender expression"

Kids in these circumstances are traumatized, they will more than likely fail in this life at everything they do and they will die relatively young.   

Those are the undisputable facts, the last thing they need is this crap.

Banks’ bill would prevent child welfare agencies and related groups that receive federal funding from getting those funds if they refuse prospective parents who insist against the child’s stated LGBTQ status. 

That includes prospective parents who say they will refuse a child’s desire for medical, surgical, pharmacological, and psychological treatment if it is inconsistent with their biological sex.

In the matter of foster kids, foster carers and agencies will have to use a transgender child’s “identified pronouns, chosen name, and allow the child to dress in an age-appropriate manner that the child believes reflects their self-identified gender identity and expression”.

HHS Secretary Xavier Becerra thinks that messing with these traumatized and directionless children even more is a positive thing. “This is going to change the complexion of how we view foster care treatment for our foster kids, but more importantly, how we look at the people who we rely on to care for foster kids.”

Try to sell Gay to his rich kids and see what happens to you.

The people who are fighting this rule are the many faith-based providers of foster care, but you see, that’s why the whack jobs at Health and Human Services wrote the rule in the first place.

When the government goons who wrote this rule put it in print they knew it violated the US Constitution and discriminated unfairly against Christians who hold traditional orthodox beliefs on marriage, the family, and sexual morality by forcing them from the sector.

Really what this is about is two things, one is to force fostering parents and related religious agencies to override their consciences and the other is to push the Catholic Church…which raised me within the Connecticut foster care system…out of the fostering and adoptions services they offer.  Without faith-based organizations and foster homes, the foster care system, which survivors only through miracles, would collapse, plain and simple because the rule would severely limit the number of available foster homes. What that will do is force the federal and state agencies to pour even more money into a foster system that doesn’t work.

Let me simplify that…in the end, the ones who will get hurt are kids from dirt-poor backgrounds who have no way to defend themselves, but, you see, that’s the brilliance of the government plan.    

Island

 Island

Langston Hughes
 
Wave of sorrow,
Do not drown me now:
 
I see the island
Still ahead somehow.
 
I see the island
And its sands are fair:
 
Wave of sorrow,
Take me there.




Alessandro Tofanelli (Italian) Prima di natale [Before Christmas], 2020



Intuition

 

As I approach seven decades, I have become much more aware that aging is many things, an accumulation of changes that happened in quick succession causing some parts of me to grow while other parts of me decline.

I’ve become more cognizant of the important matters in my life, which, more and more, are always things, while, willfully, I am less aware of the insignificant, which, more and more, are people.  

You have no doubt heard the expression “Age is just a number” is a dumber way of saying that our sense of spirit, my eternal being, has gotten better and seems to get better with every passing day.

I think this change is due largely to my growing and ever-expanding reliance on my intuition. Unlike the use of my legs or the ability to lift heavy things, my intuition has gotten better with age, and the more I rely on it, the more reliable it has become. I feel wiser for using it and I wonder if the use of our intuition is a natural part of aging.  When we are young, for men anyway, we can rely on our quickness and our strength, as we age, at least in my case, fast no longer defines me, in fact, I avoid fast things now, they tire me out.  As I said, my terrific strength, built by decades of manual labor that I hated  is far, far less than it was.  Nowadays, before lifting anything seemingly heavy, I have to ask myself  “Is it worth a heart attack?” a real possibility in my case. Of course, we have to be careful in our use of intuition because as we age, cognition and emotion impact the decision processes. It's simply a part of life.

The older we get our deliberative processes, the ability to critically examine an issue lessens.  That is balanced out by our stability and emotional processing increases. The bottom line is it all balances out. By relying more on our stability of emotions and less on our declining deliberative faculties, the quality of their decisions is significantly improved. As Camus wrote, “To grow old is to move from passion to compassion.”




December 7, Pearle Harbor Day

  


“They shall not grow old, as we that are left grow old. Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn. At the going down of the sun and in the morning we will remember them.”  Laurence Binyon

I haven't read it but I intend too.....right up my alley

 A true story of glamour and tragedy

Review: “American Eve: Evelyn Nesbit, Stanford White, the Birth of the ‘It’ Girl, and the Crime of the Century” by Paula Uruburu

 

DEC 6, 2023

 

This book, published in 2008, isn’t new but neither is the story of love, loss, betrayal and passion. Evelyn Nesbit’s connection to the Adirondack region is through her stay at Chateaugay Lake in 1915, while hiding from hordes of reporters during her husband’s second murder trial in New York City.

In 1900, when Florence Evelyn was 15 years old, she moved from Pittsburgh to New York City with her mother (confusingly named, Evelyn Florence) and brother. Painters, sculptors and photographers had already re-created her likeness so often that her face was everywhere: magazines, advertisements, newspapers and even in church stained-glass windows. In NYC, the trend continued. She was slightly built, a “waif” who stood barely 5 feet tall, due mostly to malnourishment her entire childhood. Her father died when she was 11 years old, leaving a financial mess for her ill-equipped mother to untangle. Once her neglectful mother realized her daughter’s beauty was a valuable currency, Florence Evelyn became the family breadwinner until her mother remarried and cut off all communications with her daughter.

Although Florence Evelyn read every book she could find and dreamed of fulfilling her father’s dream that she attend Vassar College, instead of attending high school, Florence Evelyn worked in a department store during the day and posed for painters and sculptors in the evenings. Her younger brother worked in the same store while their mother dreamed of becoming a clothing designer. She often left the children with family members for months at a time while she searched for work with no results, and the family continued to live in poverty. Even after moving to New York City for Florence Evelyn’s career, they fared little better. She continued to work during the day, posing for artists. In the evenings, she played the role of a Spanish maiden in the musical Florodoro, and then she partied into the mornings. She was 16, with inconsistent parental supervision. During this time, she changed her name to Eve Nesbit.

Men began to notice the girl’s beauty. She became an obsession for countless, much older, men. On a nightly basis, her dressing room was filled with flowers, love letters and gifts from admirers she didn’t know or even care to know. Until Stanford White, millionaire architect, made his entrance, Eve was uninterested in the men who sought her attention. White was 46 years old, married and a father. White kept up his carefully cultivated public persona as a patron of the arts, but he privately preyed on young girls like Eve. She wasn’t the first, nor the last. This is only the beginning of Eve’s story.

Even if you don’t know the tragic story of Evelyn Nesbit, you can probably guess some of what this young, vulnerable girl endured. But there is much more to the fascinating story in Paula Uruburu’s book. I recommend reading the tale of the “It” girl at the turn of the century. American Eve is a little bit like a reality television show mixed with a melodramatic telenovella and a Bollywood movie, but sadly true.




Style matters.........

 


Middle Neolithic, 3500 B. C. clear quartz arrowhead found during the construction of a cable car track in Neuchâtel, Switzerland in 1999.

Kudos to the Sun Central for reporting on this story. Foster kids have enough challenges with the incompetence of Embrace Families making it worse.


 

Central Florida foster care agency failed to pay bills, caused kids to sleep in offices, suit says

 

By ANNIE MARTIN | anmartin@orlandosentinel.com | Orlando Sentinel

December 3, 2023 at 7:00 a.m.

Embrace Families, the lead agency for foster care in Central Florida, is being sued by a contractor that says the nonprofit owes it more than $1.3 million for services it provided, including for children who had to sleep in the contractor’s offices because space was not available in foster homes.

An unexpectedly high number of children needing care have “overwhelmed” the foster care system during the past couple of years, prompting a crisis, according to the complaint filed last month in Orange County Circuit Court by Children’s Home Society of Florida.

The nonprofit is alleging that Embrace Families, which administers foster care and related services for roughly 3,000 children in Orange, Osceola and Seminole counties, did not reimburse it for expenses, including transportation to school and medical appointments, as well as mentoring services, for children sleeping in Children’s Home Society offices. Embrace Families has said in recent weeks it is in dire financial straits and may have to abandon its foster care role.

A spokeswoman for Children’s Home Society, which serves at-risk and foster children across the state, declined to comment on the matter.

Maureen Brockman, a spokeswoman for Embrace Families, wrote that the complaint concerns expenses beyond the organization’s original $32 million contract with Children’s Home Society, which ended last year. The two nonprofits are in mediation and working to resolve the dispute, she added.

Embrace Families is in a “financial emergency” and board members wrote last month in a letter to the state that they expect to run out of money in the coming months. Though Embrace Families gave the required six months notice to end the organization’s contract with the Department of Children and Families, board members also warned the state they anticipate they will deplete the nonprofit’s funding “much earlier than that date.”

 

Embrace Families is one of more than a dozen organizations across the state that manage these services through contracts with DCF. A spokesperson for the department told the Sentinel the department has expressed concerns for over a year that the organization was mismanaging its finances, placing children in unlicensed settings and providing too little support to its contractors.

But Embrace Families has blamed rising expenses and insufficient support from the state for its financial woes.

Board chair Angela Folger wrote in an email to the Sentinel that the area is home to 12% of the state’s children, yet Embrace Family receives only 7% of the funding provided to the organizations that manage foster care across the state.

Gerry Glynn, the organization’s interim chief operating officer, noted that disparity this week in his comments to the Orange County Legislative Delegation, which met on Wednesday in Orlando. The group includes state House and Senate members whose districts are located partially or entirely in Orange County.

He also said the Legislature had agreed to fund a request from the Embrace Families for nearly $13 million to cover deficits, but that DCF has not released all of the money to the organization. As a result, Glynn said, board members decided to end the state contract.

“Despite consistent efforts to collaborate, it became clear that we were not making progress with the department,” Glynn said.

But a bill filed less than a week after board members wrote to the state could help Central Florida in the future, he said. The legislation, filed by Sen. Ileana Garcia, R-Miami, is intended to promote “prevention, family preservation, and permanency” and provides financial incentives to lead agencies in the foster care system that achieve those goals. Embrace Families leaders have said they are penalized unfairly for keeping more children with their families, which diminishes the funding they receive from the state.

Glynn encouraged local lawmakers to support the bill, saying that he thinks it could result in a funding increase of as much as 20% for whichever organization steps in as the area’s lead agency.

“We think the children and families in Central Florida deserve a more equitable funding formula and we would encourage you all to continue to support that push for equitable funding,” Glynn said.